First things first: thank you for all the support - comments, messages, calls… It is so heartwarming. I have to admit that I did everything for the first post in one hour! I was going through a horrible jet lag and decided at 5pm that I need to write this. I wrote it, created the blog, asked for feedback and published - all from 5 to 6 pm. I had never done this before and knew that if I slept on it I would change my mind. So thank you again for giving me your support, it will

Six months into my traumatic experience, I started feeling waves of unmeasurable pain. I thought I was in pain before, but this is another level. I have so far been consciously pushing my pain away and it sort of blew up inside me. I somehow knew this would happen eventually and was dreading the moment I can’t control everything anymore. And so it arrived… You probably figured it out: I lost a child six months ago. Mya, my magical daughter left us in November 2017. She was bo